Time to cover what has been an eventful week.
1) Blogging every night sucks
This week I started blogging at night before I sleep, a new shift compared to before when I blog in the morning. As a consequence, I tend to blog crankier and with a need for more prescience. It sucks because when I blog in the morning, I have a few hours to think of ways to pad and hedge my predictions about stuff. So expect me to be wrong about a lot more stuff, especially since I’ve been in a bit of a funk. But it’s good for me because it adds a lot of pressure to think harder about stuff.
2) I’ve hit the wall
I suppose this is something that happens to people coming out of high school, but I’ve hit a wall in a lot of my aspirations. My fight record in taekwondo against black belts is not good, less than .500 in fact. My record in these professional exams has also dipped to a highly unsatisfactory level. The job search is not going particularly well and my training doesn’t feel as exciting or fun as it once did. I’m not quite sure what to do about it, although the answer probably just lies with good old fashioned discipline. All of life is not supposed to be fun. Hopefully there’s just a hump to cross. Or I’m sacrificing all my other luck for the wedding, which isn’t a bad bargain if it turns out well.
3) I’m intrigued by excellence, not by mystery
Going to the Asian Art Museum showed me that I’m not dazzled by the common perception of the samurai or by specific cultures. What dazzles me is that definition of virtuosity: doing the common uncommonly well. Everyone makes pots and they all hold water, but some people care about making beautiful pots. The samurai didn’t fight or arm themselves better than anyone else, but they organized society and adapted to a changing world better, and that’s what I admire about them.
Goals from the week:
1) Did not pass
2) Fell short
3) Fell short
4) Maintained weight
5) Sorted out wedding stuff
Verdict: Wall indeed. Mada mada dane.